| Location | Manchester |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Miscarriage |
| Date of Birth | 30/06/2009 |
| Date of Death | 30/06/2009 |
| Visitors | 2,148 since 21/07/2009 |
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My little baby Bernadette, well what can I say - but this is our story! I was desperate to add to our family, and for Maria to have a baby Brother or sister, when I found out I was pregnant I was delighted, aprehensive about the morning sickness but completely over the moon. I kept counting the weeks and updates on your development, imagining how big you were becoming etc.
One horrible evening I noticed I was having spotting. We went to the hospital, they weren't overly concerned, I had scans and was sent home feeling really quite hopeful.This continued for about a week, and we were in and out of hospital having scans.
Then I woke up in pain one night, I was scared. We went to the hospital, again having scans, and they found I had a clot in there with you, and you were really awkward because you were putting your little feet all over it, and it couldn't be measured. I always felt reasured when I saw you moving and putting your hands on your head etc in the scans, I thought things would always be done to help babies in the wombs, gosh they can even operate in the womb these days.
The clot passed through and the doctors hoped things would then settle and we would both be alright, so we went home and rested, as we were told and went to bed.
I then woke up with terrible pains and I knew we had to get to hospital ASAP, so we went in the ambulance, and all night more and more clots kept passing. I was finding it so hard to cope with the pain, I was lying there when they examined me praying that you were ok. When I eventually got the scan I could see your heart beating, but my waters had broke and I was dialating. I was told that things didn't look great. But I thought as long as I could see your tiny heart beating there was hope, they were not god and only he could say who lives and dies.
I prayed and never gave up, but the clots kept coming hard and fast, I was so scared of going to the toliet. They wanted me to end it more quickly, but for days I said no, until I started getting poorly. You see mummy has got a very bad infection, and mummy had to remember that I had Maria, she is only 4 and needs her mummy too. By then I think you had already left us. You were born on 30th June at 9.40pm, and it was unfortuanely the worst day of my life. I hoped and wished that if only you could have stayed there for another 7 weeks you would have had a chance.
I saw you that night, you were beautiful all fingers and toes everything was perfect, just all very small. When I held you in my hands, I noticed your little heart was beating.So did Grandma, Grandad, daddy and the midwives, even though you were completely lifeless! The midwives called the Doctor, he even could see you heart beating he could not explain it - he said it was impossible for you to even live, as you were so young, and he also said it was impossible for it to be nerves.This was 2 1/2 hours after you had been born, with no sign of life.
I know now it is your and gods way of telling me that you are living on elsewhere, but I still miss you and wish you could be here with me! I love you my beautiful little Bernadette,I hope that you are watching over all of us, and know that we all love you, and you will never ever be forgotton.
Mummy has 2 babies now, one called Maria who lives here with us, and one who is an angel in the sky! I always wear my locket with your picture. I hope always receive that goodnight kiss every night. You were expected on the 7th December and were supposed to be our early Christmas present - you were just born too soon! All my love sweet heart x
Mummy
I would like to advise anyone who reads my Bernadette Memorial that I just found out yesterday 04/08/2009 that the reason my little one died is due to Group B Streptococcus (GBS) is the most common cause of Life -Threating infections in Foetus and new born Babies. It affects around 700 babies a year and kills. I lost my baby at 17 weeks and it all could have been prevented with simple antibiotics. But the NHS does not test pregnant women in this country like they do in Australia, USA etc, and the infection can go unnoticed and lead to late miscarriage/ Still Births and Neonatal deaths . If you know anyone who is pregnant, please urge them to ask at their GP surgery to have a private test done for Strep B. It will save many babies, stop the heart break I have suffered, and my Bernadette will have not died in vain. you can purchase self testing kits from www.homehealth-uk.com. and more information on Strep B from www.Gbss.org.uk/Information
Please sent this to as many people as you can!
Sent with love ♥
Why is our heart breaking.
When we think of you,
Why is our body aching
With our memories so true,
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Why did you have to go,
We need you now today,
Its because we love you so,
In each and every way,
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We will try and keep on going,
We will try to keep so strong,
But you should be here beside us.
In our home where you belong.
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Written by Jan Morris
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Thank you
Thank you my little princess in heaven for making sure mummy and your new little sister Amy arrived into the world safely on 6th August 2010 at 10.30am. I know now that you were not meant for this world, as your little sister wouldn't have come a long if you were. You saved her in many ways, and made sure she didn't die of what you had, as your death ensured she was monitored closely, and given what you weren't. You will always have a special place in mummies heart - love you forever, and hope to meet one day! you will never be forgotten x
A Birthday In Heaven - by Kris Smith
I heard you crying yesterday,
And felt your heart-sent love.
So I’m sending you this message
Now, from Heaven up above.
You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate
My Birthday (way up here).
I know you’re missing me today
I feel your essence near.
God planned a special day for me,
He told me with a wink.
He’d ordered me a special cake
(It’s Angel food, I think).
Balloons will fill the streets for me,
They float up through the clouds.
And we have lots of friends up here
That make us laugh out loud.
There is a Birthday carousel,
Jewelled horses ride the wind,
With music playing, oh so sweet…
The magic never ends.
I’ve made so many friends, you see
We laugh and play and sing.
We ride our bikes and play jump rope
And sleep in Angel’s wings.
We’ll have our cake and ice cream
And open gifts - SURPRISE!
But we don’t blow out our candles here
Instead, they light the skies.
With love from your little Angel XX
Precious Child by Karen Taylor Good
In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still
In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still
In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then
In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
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Native American Prayer
I give you this one thought to keep--
I am with you still--I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the mornings hush,
I am the swift, uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not think of me as gone--
I am with you still--in each new dawn.
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Gail xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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all the best of health for 2010 to you and your angel xxx
After making his new angel
God looked down from above
He happened to notice you
And all he saw was love
He said to the angel
"I need to send you there,
There is where you'll be loved
Where you will feel the most care"
So God sent you this angel
To nuture, love and grow
But not an angel you could keep
For it would soon be time to go
You taught this angel wonderful things
That only a mother could do
Your angel learnt compassion and warmth
Whilst living inside of you
This angel was one that would have to leave
One you'd hardly hold
One you'd mourn for the rest of your life
If the truth be told
God realised you'd miss this angel
And so he gave you tears
A way to express your love
Over the coming years
Then God called this angel home
And asked what the angel had learned
The angel said a love so strong
In a mothers heart had burned
"I learnt that love can exist
Even when I've gone
For love never dies you see
I've learnt it carries on"
God looked at the angel
Smiled and gave a sigh
"You have learnt a valuable lesson
That often passes people by"
The angel looked at God and asked
"Why is my mummy so sad?"
God answered "when I called you home
It made her miss what she had;
But soon she will realise
I sent her a special gift
I sent her you my child
Although I took you swift
Her love for you will never wain
You will remain ever in her heart
You will be in her thoughts and feelings
Like you've never been apart"
The angel asked God what this mummy did
To deserve such a wonderful thing
"Your mummy is so pure of heart
she makes the angels want to sing"
The angel thanked God
For giving him such a lovely mum
So you see in loving your angel
Your work is truly done
God didn't wish to punish you
He only showed you love
He gave you a special angel
A gift from heaven above
He knows only a special person
Can be an angel mum
He made us in his image
He lost his only son
He know's just how your heart aches
And wished that wasn't so
But your angel is so happy
In God's heavenly home
So when you think of your angel
Please just smile, don't weep
Be proud that God chose you
To love an angel so sweet
When your heart feels empty
Your life so full of despair
Remember God picked you!
Because no-one else compares
(Author Unknown)
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